No real suggestion- my post was hypothetical, IF something was found... one day... I don't expect it soon.
For what it's worth your gender identity crisis and your attempt to pretend you were straight resulting in rage I think is far more common than many people think- I think it's the reason for the rise of 'random' violence.
You already mentioned you don't want to relocate but I'd imagine being in Texas is making finding people to treat you much harder than if you were in say San Francisco or New York City. I'm sure you can find lesbians there/here too- but probably won't be as attractive as Texas girls- but then again I don't really know what you'd find attractive.
For what it's worth your gender identity crisis and your attempt to pretend you were straight resulting in rage I think is far more common than many people think- I think it's the reason for the rise of 'random' violence.
You already mentioned you don't want to relocate but I'd imagine being in Texas is making finding people to treat you much harder than if you were in say San Francisco or New York City. I'm sure you can find lesbians there/here too- but probably won't be as attractive as Texas girls- but then again I don't really know what you'd find attractive.